When u r sensitive, u become receptive

Aug 4 Eve
Father, no calls at all. Sl just told me she is going break off with her ex-boss. She said not sure if it can happen.

For me, it was Z who broke off and I can trust he be steadfast and ignore me if I were to go back. He has ignored me for so many days now.

Mind keep on saying I m guilty. But let's face it, I did try and I don't want to go back on what may or may not happen. Z is adamant. I also pity him for being in such bad condition.

Sl said I don't look so sad with the separation. That's true. Part of me is sad but not too sad either.

Osho - celebration
A person become more loving and less sexual, more sensitive and less sensual. He thinks nor more in terms of sensuality, his body-mind, his body-wisdom has changed: his body has become mature. When he looks at the trees, he will find more greenery than u can find because he has become more sensitive. Now suddenly nature had a life of its own, so many colours, and so beautiful. He went and touched it. He wanted to hug, to sing a song for it, to dance for it.
His eyes become very sensitive, he could see through and through: there were no more screens - nothing to bar the way. His sensitivity was very clear.
Ur body will just be a passage, a tremendous receptivity: it will simply soak it up and take it to ur heart. And the whole of life will take a different luminosity - it will become colourful, psychedelic.

Soul
Exactly where I am. I recalled I used to fantasise sex and need masturbation. When I met Z, I didn't need masturbation as I have him. Although we don't do it often, I still don't need sex. When I am not with him, I don't think of it at all. I was surprised.

On nature, I definitely got psychedelic eyes sight. The grass is so beautiful that it stopped me in my tracks.

Osho - celebration
Once the body attains to sensitivity, u will find joy through the body, great joy. Small things become so delightful, eating, talking to a friend, looking at the sky, looking at the trees, just swimming in the river and etc, everything becomes so joyful. The whole life takes a new hue of rejoicing. U will be able to dance and sing if the body is resurrected.

Soul
True. When I went into samyama, I started to sing and dance. Nowadays I sing quite often.

Nowadays, my 'remembrance' is much greater. I generally know where I park my car. I can remember the errands that my family wants me to do.

Osho celebration
Silence will arise. A man of knowing is very silent. Words don't go on floating in his consciousness; there is no monologue. He is not continuously in the inner talk ... And awareness arises, and celebration; a man becomes creative. That's what celebration is; one starts participating in God the Creator.
That's what celebration is all about. Whenever u r really celebrating, u create something: u become a participant in the creative process of life.
And when on the third level the self, the ego disappears, a great explosion happens. That's what Zen people call satori, Yoga calls samadhi.
When in the self, the self disappears, when u look inside urself and u don't find anybody there: just a pure awareness, a witnessing, a no-self, u have arrived home.

This is the very basic approach of Tao, that ego has to disappear on three levels. The ego gone ... the body becomes the temple, the mind becomes the innermost shrine and the self becomes the whole - the god himself of the shrine. U become religious when ur body is a temple, ur mind is a shrine and u r nothing but God himself, the whole itself.

Soul
Amen