Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Z feeling insecure about me

Jul 28 Eve
Father, I met V.

He said Z is very affected by me. He is now feeling sorry for himself. Me, being able to resign from my job and take a 50% salary cuts just show how financially strong I am. This makes him feel bad.
He is already trying his best to do biz but so far nothing turns up. He is now feeling pressured to deliver especially since he knew my need for financial security. Since he think he cannot meet, I will leave him in future. He might as well give up trying and ask me to leave him now. For him, short term pain better than long term.

I told V that Z said he is not affected by me. V said that is just his pride and Z is definitely affected by me.

I agree, that's was why I tot his reaction was positive and we go in one step deeper. But he is trying to run away, to avoid facing us. To avoid confrontation.

I have msg him and called him a few times. I can only do so much.
He replied by asking me to move on. Keep on saying his financials is bad. He also doesn't want to pick my calls. Father, I don't mind the ending. But to end this way is so ghastly.
I felt hurt by the way he end it. It was so abrupt, so unexpected.
I am less hurt by the ending.
Perhaps it is best, he can do it but I cannot.

An ending of both love and money.
I will let go and the time in India will be for my recovery.
No worries, I m love and I have money too.

(Aug 21 - the next morning he msg me saying that he was busy watching Olympics and hence didn't hear my calls.)

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