Saturday, August 25, 2012

Mind is still playing with drama on Z

Aug 4 Aft
Woke up from afternoon nap. I had some wild hope for a call from him but I knew that is unlikely.

Father, what my heart says. I m not happy today but I be fine. I recalled last week was my resignation from work and now this week Z's resignation from me. Both unexpected.

I have knew for quite some time that Z and I had run our course. But I cannot let him go. Honestly, we are compatible physically and mentally. We are not matched spiritually or emotionally. Like he said, I m going towards non-material path whereas he is on material. I am freed from money chasing, whereas he cannot.

Participation
We r behaving like blind people. In such a beautiful world, we r living in small ponds of our own misery. It is familiar, so even if somebody wants to pull u out u struggle. U don't want to be pulled out of ur misery. Otherwise there is so much joy around, u just have to be aware of it.

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