My feelings of rejection is also present in others

Jul 16 Eve

Father, I was good on my own until K called me. She voiced her frustration.

As for P. Don't take it personally, she was worried that the agreed donation of 20k will not be forthcoming.

First reaction was mental rejection of the event. If they think they so good, just do it themselves. Then I calm down.

It is not a form of rejection. The fact they didn't call me for fund raising was because they knew I don't want to be, not because I am outcast. But I m going because K asked and its a great sponsorship opportunity.

Its true, I am emotional now. I accept it. Let me be. I guess I don't like it when people said I am emotional. It took me so long to reach here. But maybe part of me still not accepting yet, hence the defensiveness.

Father, a tot came to me. Perhaps that's how others feel too. For eg, when I go to Germany, it will gives the impression of rejection of E.