7 years destiny cards (age 42 to 48)

Sept 30

Soul
Tots of P came up. Father, it felt like a reprimand, felt like a Parent to me. Suddenly also tot of V who didn't respond to me. Looks like I lost my role in Isha completely. Looks like I am Nobody.

A tot came, it was u who dropped it. Yea cos I don't really want it. Its a paradox, eventhough I didn't want nor ask for it and I got it and couldn't take it, initiate the let go and yet I am bit sad when I finally lose it. Why yearn for something I don't want.

Long range
Queen of Spades (Self-Mastery)
Queens have their greatest power in the feminine, receptive mode. To truly receive, we must attain that state of mind in which we allow everything to come to us without hesitation. It usually require some inner exploration to achieve this state, and this is something that most of us never do, because it is not taught as part of our culture.
It is the spiritual aspirant who learns to master themselves instead of trying to change external circumstances. And it is those aspirants who experience the real power of the feminine sides of their being, which the Queen of Spades represents.

The Queen of Spades is the second most powerful card in this deck. This is a period when u can accomplish ur dream, but not by the usual approach. This period, all success comes from within u by mastering the causes of all ur exterior events by mastery of urself. By seeing that nothing happens in ur life without ur permission, u reclaim the power to create the world u desire without trying to change others. This could indeed be a period of mastery and accomplishment for u. Recognise the power that u have now and apply it wherever u desire. Look within for ur answers and let that inner knowing help u in all ur external endeavours.

Keywords;
A period of hard work and spiritual 'self mastery'. I master myself and therefore, I master my entire life.

Pluto - King of Spades
One of ur important goals is to accomplish a sense of mastery in ur life, perhaps even a leadership position in ur chosen line of work.
King of Spades is both a master of his work and of himself.

Affirmation
I develop true power and authority in my life by being willing to master all that I do and take full responsibility for my own successes and failures.

Results - Jack of Spades
By age 48, u will be successful in the areas of acting, creative writing or other creative pursuits, or that u will be exposed to a spiritual discipline that will alter most of every are of ur life.
This could be a period of major transformation for u, one where u begin a entirely new lifestyle based on truth and higher wisdom. Even on a mundane level, success is urs, but especially.

This card is also a powerful indicator that u could end up with some younger man of the Spades suits.

Soul
True. Z and I was together for 2 years.

Displacement
Four of Diamonds
Get really clear about what u want in ur life and then be willing to put in the proper amount of work in order to achieve it.

Soul
Suddenly tot I should be doing a Business Plan on this. I have been lackadaisical and want to treat my dream as part time as hobby. Afraid to put in effort cos afraid to fail. Better to dream.
At least I dropped volunteering in Isha and also corporate career. Now it the next step.