Shoonya is my saviour

Oct 10 Eve

Finally menses came today after a delay of 2 months . Just started and I m not sure of the flow.

I missed Z. I love him but let's not go there. I want a real partner, not someone who is unable to commit. We discussed to death and it has been 2 years. Let me accept the separation. Just go with the flow.

Just did shoonya. At first bit of tears came and then it was loads of laughter. A flash of Z leaving me to go to party came. Yeah, everytime I miss him and had tots of going back, I just need to remember why I left him.

Mystic's Musings
If u can run ur life without the offer of heaven, u r on the path; but if by taking the offer and by cutting a deal u can still run in the right direction, go ahead and do it. If such a situation comes in ur life, if such a level of maturity comes to u that u don't need any deals and u can still do it, it is good.

If u have grown out of this limitation that something has to be offered for u to do something, then u have a different kind of strength.

When u hope for something, when u r looking forward to something happening, the fear or frustration is waiting just behind. Another way of looking at hope is an expectation. If a person has no hope, he is truly blessed, because that person has no fear of failure.

Soul
Tot of my website. Now I am doing it becos I know I need the outlet. I no longer look towards the outcome. The website is a tool for my own sanity.