Checking out on Z and I

Oct 24

Today woke up at 6.30 am to do practices. Asanas were moderate, just a bit of laughter. Shakti and shambavi was quite ok. There were tots floating around. But when I did the ploughback at the end of practice, I was much more nimble.

My rship with Z on Tarot

1. Me - Healing
Be aware of ur wound. Don't help it grow, let it be healed and it will be healed only when u move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things.
When we are under the healing influence of the King of Water we r no longer hiding from ourselves or others. In this attitude of openness and acceptance we can be healed and help others also to be healthy and whole.

2. Him
Beyond illusion
Reality allows u to doubt and the dream does not allow u to doubt.
This card reminds us not to look outside for what is real but to look within. These judgement keep us trapped in our illusions, our sleepiness.
Drop ur opinionated mind aside.

Soul
Very right. I am afraid of being hurt again, I don't want to go back and lose my dream of a real time partner. Z is still attached to his dreams and cannot come out.
No wonder no movement.

3. The Composite Energy
Rebel
The powerful and authoritative figure is clearly the master of his own destiny.
Rebel is really an emperor because he has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions.

Soul
Both of us need to be that. But we r not.

4. The Insight
The Source
Zen asks u to come out of the head and go to the basic source. Learn how to be at the Source. Then the Source will decide where ur potentila is.

Soul
Yea. Stay grounded.

I was reading something about thinking of worst possible outcome.
People aware of my inner. People judge me.