Purification meditation

Oct 14 Eve

When I was preparing for sathsang, suddenly I was singing guru pooja. This has never happen. The last time it happened was a few years ago when I sang during the silence after aum chanting.

This time Brahma nanda, I laugh loads, non-stop.

Father, great sathsang for me. There were a small crowd, only 18. The old me may have feel slighted. The new me was fine with it.

Since the crowd was small, this give me the opportunity to participate. I did the special meditation with partial eyes open and it was great. I felt purified of all anger, hate, jealousies and etc. I was jealous of people in good rship, ladies who are beautiful. I was angry at Pe. As for hate, I don't recall.

Automatically, my body somehow gathers all the negative emotions in my lower belly and move it through my body and into my mouth. It was done by my body. Then Sadhguru guide to expel it. I felt purified. Today I know I don't like to be a teacher, guiding people steps by steps. U can said I am not good, u can said I am not detailed or perhaps I am not patient. Anyway, I just don't like doing it.