Hata yoga - body likes but mind doesn't

Oct 5

Father, I was tired this morning when alarm ring 6.15 am. I just feel tired. Not sure why but today is second time I wake up about 1 to 2 am to go to toilet. I have always sleep through to morning. Not sure is this is another sign of pre-menopause.

Anyway, woke up at 7 am and did my suria and it was ok. I didn't do with subtle body. I just did it like an exercise.

Father, I sort of fell out of love with hata. But not sure, cos while my mind doesn't like it, my body does. For a moment, regretted my decision to do hata this mid Dec. But I knew it is fine lah.

Finished my practices and felt good. It is really energising and releasing all the stale heat from my body. And the happy state stays on. As I was driving, I suddenly tot I am real lucky cos I had 2 glorious year of good sex before my pre-menopause, thanks to Z. Who knows, perhaps this is it. Our ending coincides with my pre-menopause.


Oct 5 Eve

Father, Z got back today. I can no longer pretend we are in hibernation. It is sad but I have to accept it is over.

Today had my first swimming lesson. Got back to breast stroke. Today I learned 2 things which I have forgotten; one is to straighten the legs when hand is pulling the water and second to blow little bubble instead of big bubble. Don't throw off all the air. I have to admit I swam much better than I tot I would.