Commitment to spiritual instead of material endeavours

Oct 3
Father, woke up at 3.45 am after 5 hours sleep. Went back to sleep and wake up at 6.15 am when alarm rang.

Did my suria and try to feel my subtle body. At first I tot I cannot get it but towards seventh cycle, my feet was nearly touching each other during mountain pose. I can also now close my feet during resting postures. Something I haven't done for the past 1 year.

Had some tots of Z but I waived it off cos its over. Have to accept this.

Just pluck this from SN in Scorpio

Spirituality
SN in Scorpio have a strong spiritual needs that must be honoured; quiet, relaxing time for reflection, creativity and renewal. They are so tired from the hard work of past incarnations that in this lifetime they need to rest. The problem is they are not accustomed to rest.

Soul
Yes. I now need rest. I know quiet time is very important to me.


Spirituality
They have already mastered the material realm, now its the time to explore the spiritual realm, involving themselves in experiences that promote personal transformation - psychology, consciousness-expanding seminars or self-help classes. They need to be involved in pursuits that will free them from the bondage of the material realm.
They are learning to attach themselves to universal energy and trust the unfolding of life. They are discovering the spiritual power of saying: "I want it to be exactly the way it is." And then they win - they see what actions to take and their lives become magical.

So the key is stop making more material commitments and begin making commitments that will increase their spiritual awareness.

Soul
Perfect. I am now making commitment that increase my wellness.
Father, I still have bit of resistance of using word spiritual cos I don't think I fit into the standard template. I am afraid if I say I am on spiritual path, I be judged for not being in compliance with the template. I love meat and I enjoy material pleasure and enjoy sex.