Stop believing your thoughts that hold me back

Apr 25

Angarmadhana not so great and I forgot some squatting posture. On standing, couldn't balance that well. Maybe new place and of course without shrine. But otherwise good overall. Breathing was good.
Kapala Bhakti was fine. Great slow first cycle of Kapala Bhakti. Lost in tots during second cycle. Came back in third cycle but energy build up enormously half way. To my surprise I cry again during Kapala Bhakti. Cried with tears rolling down my cheek. Then went in deep.
Shambavi was good. Hissing breathe for long time at the end.

There were some tots of local Isha which I ignored. Guess just feeling worried that I m not wanted. I calm myself and said I enjoy my sadhana more. And I love that I have time to chill out. Father, not easy letting go but if I don't let go I have no time to do my writing. It may not have immediate impact on others or rather it may not be needed but it is what I enjoyed doing. I want to do what I enjoy and not what others needed.

At the end started to sing goodbye song again and I squashed it immediately. No more goodbye. I deserve loving and loyal husband.

From tiny Buddha
Just because you believe something does not make it true.
People who promote positive thinking would advise you to start thinking positively. I think this is obviously better than negative thinking, but it’s still not the solution. I believe in letting thoughts go.

Let go of all the destructive thoughts you hold about yourself. Once you are able to accept that you are not what your thoughts are telling you, you will become free.

You will no longer limit yourself with your thinking because you will accept that your thoughts are faulty.

Once you realize that your thoughts are faulty, there will be nothing else standing in your way; and when you realize that there is nothing standing in your way, you will see that it was your thoughts that were holding you back from being who you wanted to be this whole time.

Soul
Exactly my point. This is my new affirmation. I stop believing any tots that holds me back.