Resentment due to not saying no

Apr 23 aft

Father, since V can't handle the volunteer. I might as well take over Sathsang coordinator role. Shape it up.
Also the news that the temporary guide going off also bothers me.
At least now got other potential.

Just informed P that I given a name to Tech to scout but I am not looking for one. At least express how I feel. They should be responsible for scouting.
Father, I am learning to say no.

Father, they saying nope to teacher and again leaving me to fend alone should be used as a catalyst. If they can say no, so can I too. That's my resentment on why others can say no. Why they can and I can't. Perhaps this is the limit I had on myself. They are setting parameters and I don't. It doesn't matter if my parameters on volunteering is higher than theirs as I don't have parameters in other areas. Or rather I haven't been saying no despite me not wanting to do. Main thing is to learn to say no.
Pe said its because of guilt. This time I responded that her issue. I don't have guilt per se. Me is on losing validation, losing the bond, disappointing friends.

Gemini Rising
Ur challenge in choosing a suitable mate, partner or friend is to see the reality of the situation. While ur motive of wanting to inspire the other person is to live a more expansive life is correct, early in the relationship it is important for u to step back and be honest with urself in terms of what u know about the other person on a factual level.
Is he intelligent?
How does he think?
Is he open to risk and adventure?
What is his thinking about taking chances in life, acting on his inspiration and moving from a comfortable situation to take a leap of faith and have an expansive adventure?
As u become better aware of who he really is, u can better decide if he is the right partner for u.
Seeing the other person's level of faith in the universe and positive outcomes as separate from ur own - and possibly quite different from u

Soul
Yes.
In my earnesty to fall in love I forgot what I see.
I can see that both Z and Y are mommy's boy. But I hope for my sake they will rise but they didn't. In the end perhaps they don't want to conquer that. That's why they didn't want to overcome.
In the end, all change must be for their own sake...