Lunar in Scorpio - value system

May 1

New beginning. New lights
Y and wife back to show me to be true to myself. To show me that I am strong.

Did Bhoota Shuddi and sang guru pooja. Dutifully did cat stretch these days.
Did Angarmadhana, quite good but forgot to do child sitting. At the kundalini sitting, I burst into laughter and some tears came.
Shakti was okay but somehow not able to get back my Kapala Bhakti rhythm. But in the end I was on meditative zone when doing Shambavi preparatory steps
Today cried during aum chanting. Never happen before. I cried out of loneliness. I cried for my wish of my husband to be fulfilled. Guess all this cos Y's wedding is today.
Towards the end head shaking and breathe hissing non stop. I finished my practices around 10.24 am.

Lunar eclipse in Scorpio
U r learning lessons relaying to ur value system: not being swayed in ur values; how to share ur values; overcoming negative manipulative traits; and taking responsibility for ur sexual behaviour.

Once ur energy is aligned with something u believed in, something u have tested and know to be worthwhile and beyond reproach in its integrity, u pledge urself to it with ur whole heart. That principle, person or cause then becomes ur value; it contain ur energy and make use of ur tremendous strength, and u can find peace in it.

Soul
I found Sadhguru. He is the only one that I expend all energy and money on.

Lunar in Scorpio
U have no need to be in the limelight urself but u have a tremendous need to find someone or something to believe in.
Being in the limelight is not important to u, but u do want to operate from a strong base of power; u tend to go through life gathering people whom u trust. U don't trust easily.
U r learning that u cannot depend on other people to set ur boundaries and contain ur energy.

Soul
True. I tot I can let local Isha contain me. Alas they didn't. Its only when I contain myself, they finally acceded.
Now need to face the period of aloneness. Just like the spoilt lights, must firstly throw away the spoilt lights, be in darkness for some periods before new one comes.
Must have faith in the abundance of universe so I need not be envious of others.
Must remember that I have Nine of a Diamonds as environment and Nine of Spades as Results.

Lunar in Scorpio
I am here to learn: discovery and belief in my own goodness. To stop projecting my goodness outward by looking for someone to believe in.
As u learn to support and trust ur one sense of goodness, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur own energy. This gives u the freedom to be more trusting of those around u since it eliminates the need to give away ur power. From this position u can support those around u for a purer motive, since u no longer feel that u need them to ensure ur own strength. Now when u support others it will be from a place of true caring and u will no longer be involved in a process that gives ur power away.

Soul
My intention was not pure on the work for Isha. Giving out of obligation, tot I have no choice, that there is no one as others continuously didn't rise to the occasion.