North node in Taurus - stop seeking validation

Apr 28 aft
From Facebook
“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony” ~ Mahatma Gandhi


Soul
Finally letting go the burden of responsibilities

P responded and she agreed with me that I should pull out if I feel resentful or edgy.
The old me would have reacted bit but I can understand her response.
But the new me takes this positively and move on.
It took such a long while, but I am freed.
Finally doing what I want.
Father, alas truly realising that their values are not mine.
For now, no ego's issue...but guess that will come later.
But no more..no more going through the wheels, to painful to be stuck back there.

Y also responded on my sos message and said wanted to invite me to his wedding.
I decline as I can't be making the trip.
Told him about my trip to ashram too.
I am glad we are back. The feel is now good.
Looks like his Uranus card is right, mid May and he just informed me he will be back mid May after all the wedding celebration.
Everything settled now.

A tot just came. The other day I said if I can let go of Y, then others can let go of me too.
Now, I let go of local Isha and I can let go of Y.
Y and I now in a 'new' space. Everything is settled.
Just as A and I become friends, Y and I will be too.
Amen.

Z and Y taught me to be firm in letting go.
If both of them have not been firm in letting go, I would have hold on.
Alas, they were firm and I stop holding on.
So the same here for me too.
Amen.


North node in Taurus
 When they experience 'abuse' as adults they have to first acknowledge that its happening. Then they need to extricate themselves from the situation and break the psychological bond through forgiveness. Their tendency to perceive themselves as intrinsically "bad" and dislikes by others is actually their over sensitive probing to evoke validation from others. When these folks stop seeking validation, they will no longer be so vulnerable to feeling dislikes.

Soul
I am no longer seeking validation, so no fear of being disliked.
Just like in the office, I am not bothered about being liked, so I am fearless.
I am self-validated at work from my own deliverables, my own measurement, never from others.
Amen.