Tiny Buddha - I can choose what affects me

Apr 22 aft 1

North node in Taurus
They were born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this lifetime is to focus less on bonding and more on building their values - then they will attract the right mate.

Deep in their heart, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment. To have this dream comes true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them feel whole, only then will they attract the right life partner.

Soul
A good reminder, especially this week.
Mind intermittently send message on contacting Y, which I ignored as I now know it is compulsion.

Apr 22 eve
Suddenly Y name was mentioned and we need his place. Found out he is travelling and will be in hometown for his marriage. There goes the vivid imagination. Sadness comes in. I told myself this is just the past feelings.
Then a tot occur. What makes u happy can also makes u sad.

Tiny buddha
We Have the Power to Choose
By Anonymous

Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” ~Wayne Dyer

“I can choose what affects me.”

By the time I finished the list, those words lingered. I repeated them over and over out loud. Every time I said them I felt more powerful. I felt more control over my life. I repeated different variations of the theme:

I can choose what affects me.

I can choose to not be damaged.

I can choose to not be afraid.

I can choose to not let this break-up depress me.

I can choose to look at mistakes as learning experiences.

I can choose to be confident.

I can choose to be happy.

I can choose to feel loved.

I can choose.
Every time I said a phrase, I felt a chill in my body. Tears started flowing, but I wasn’t really crying. It felt like they were escaping; like I was letting go of this deep sadness I’ve carried for so long.

It was an awakening, a healing. It was one of the most significant and amazing experiences in my life.

I wrote the words “I can choose” on my hand as a reminder. They give me the power to take control of my life. Every morning I write them again. Eventually, I won’t need a visual reminder.

Whenever I feel my thoughts become negative, I look at my hand and remember that it doesn’t have to be that way. We don’t have to be slaves to our pasts. We don’t have to go through life with emotional scars.

We don’t have to let negative experiences define us.

We all have power over our lives. It may be difficult to see, but it’s always there. We always have a choice.


Soul
When I read this, I can feel it.

Did my evening practices, no tots of Y. So it was just my past mind reacting.
I have moved on but the mind holding back.
At least now I know my poverty consciousness on my romantic relationship.

Nowadays doing Samyama in my car instead.