Venus in Leo and Third house

29 apr aft

Being in local Isha makes me happy. But too much in it makes me sad. So the issue is parameter.
Feel delicious that tomorrow is my off day. It's has been a long while since I got time for myself. To do my writing. To just enjoy my own down time.
 Want to write story on being happy.

Did Shoonya and now out for lunch. Unbelievable that I just had simple rice dish and now adjourned to classy restaurant for dessert. The old me would never eat the simple rice dish, even when I was a poor graduate. To eat 'low class' /cheap food used to make me cringe and feel suffering; so I never did. And with my good career I never had to.
Something in me change. I no longer see food as my happiness. I no longer need to put such high parameters on my food, now that I am putting parameters on other parts of my life. Dessert is still my happiness but no longer can make me sad. This is a real breakthrough.
Because I set parameters in local Isha and now I can loosen the narrow parameter in food.

Venus in Leo
Self defeating habits - seeking the approval of others in social situation.
Result - fear of disapproval holds back ur ability to spread sunshine and light. U become trapped in self-absorption when u withhold ur ability to inspire others with ur warm and gregarious nature. There a tendency to censor urself.

Soul
True.
But now I don't care. P didn't reply my message. One part of me said she is busy. The ego said she could be angry at me. But this time I m no longer afraid. She is one person, she doesn't represent local Isha. Even if she shunned me I m no longer afraid.
But I think the fact is I m confident of our friendship, we been through thick and thin.
Father I used to be affected by her response. No more. Feel so liberated.

Venus in Third house
U experience the pleasure of feeling loved when u attend social events and exchange information with a variety of people.

Soul
Yes, confirmed. Being with local Isha group, the bonding and exchanges makes me happy. What I don't like is the volunteering work.

Venus in third house
Reading, writing and going to classes are activities u enjoy.
U can increase ur self worth by communicating, learning and teaching diverse people in ways that add lightness to all and by using ur ability for diplomatic communication with an awareness of opposing views.

Soul
True.
That's why I needed time for my writing. It makes me happy. I write for myself. When I see viewing I see that an exchange of tots.
Also thinking of updating my Facebook for joyong.

North node in Third house
You may also particularly enjoy having many friends and acquaintances.  Communication and conversation are likely to be an important part of your relationships.  Relationships with siblings and early childhood friends may also be important to you.