What if I am okay to be alone

Apr 22

Woke up at 3.45 am. Body was fine despite sleeping around 11.30 pm. Pre-sleep session with the shrine truly helps cos I slept around 4 and half hours only.
Sat on the toilet bowl and wonder what's next. Just ignored my mind and shower.
Did Bhoota Shuddi followed by Guru pooja. Angarmadhana has improved. This time the sitting also got better. As usual, when I sat, joy erupts.
Breathing was fine. Shakti was okay and I was surprised towards the end I was singing loud. Shambavi good, laughing during aum chanting. Towards the end, just contentment.
Can see tots moving but these days doesn't get myself on it cause I know they not real.
A tot occurred to me, instead of thinking that I m suffering for being alone, why can't I says I m lucky. I need not face growing up in karmic relationship. I need not have to grow babies and husband. I need only to grow me.

All my exes want to continue to be my friend.  So that's mean I m truly lovable. They not being with me is due to suitability and how much changes they want in their life. That's why for both Z and Y, challenge is about change of mind on me. Both not able to overcome this challenge. Whereas for me, I go for what I want irrespective of the changes that I have to make in my life. I don't care about changes as I am not strong in my values. That's my strength and weakness too. Whereas they create stability in my life I create chaos but I have growth.

From Facebook.
Take the risk of letting go of all that you’re clinging to and dare to face the fear that is driving you. Your fear will then pass through you and it will be all over. You will no longer struggle! You will have Peace.

Let go of conditions.
Let go of expectations.
Let go of attachments to Earthly things.

Let go and find the Peace that God has promised you. Set down the things you are clinging to so that you may embrace Peace.

Soul
Good message from me. For the first time I m evaluating this.
My whole dream of having my husband is actually on validation. What if that's the wrong premise. What if I m complete on my own.
What if that's my life purpose; to know I am okay on my own; to know that I m self validated.

From Facebook. Galactic free press
Control – the control of others, the control of circumstances, the control of spirituality, the control of monetary systems, the control of you – all of it, is an old energy system that is no longer supported in the energies of an ascending planet. How are you holding onto the illusion of control? Are you embracing shifting into empowered creation? Because the way to move forward in a way that will support you in your authenticity, purpose and joy is to grow and expand, focus and create. Control is a contraction energy. You are expansion energy. We cannot put it any simpler than that. ~Archangel Gabriel

Soul
Mmm.