Lunar in Scorpio - learn to give freely

Apr 15 eve

Today did one cycle of Yoga Namaskar and Surya Kriya. My best Surya Kriya, even better than this morning.
Breathing went in deep. I didn't even need to focus I am already in the zone. Shoonya in deep too.
Amen for the practices by Sadhguru.

Feeling bit sad. Not sure where I be. Things at office also pressurising. Previous week was the outsource company and last week the accounts payable and this week was the credit control. Its like the whole department is breaking up.
I told myself I m not afraid of hard work and this too will pass. This April period is an eclipse month.

Tot of Y for a moment but I remind myself he was gone a month back and he is not my match.

Tot of Lunar In Scorpio, negative manipulation. It has always disturbed me cos I tot I m not like that. But today I can see the areas of negative manipulation. When I do something because I have to and not want to; it is conditional doing and not unconditional. When I don't get the validation I need or when I m burnt out I get resentful and if going gets too much I ran away.

Its sad but true.

Yesterday I open up and told P nope on some other local Isha initiative and she let me be. So the reality is there is always a choice but I blocked myself.
And that's Seven of Heart lifetime challenge.

Spiritual astrology
Lunar in Scorpio
By learning to give freely without ulterior motive, u are letting go of the energy of manipulation. U can spend so much time manipulating the lives of those around u that u become caught up in this mode of expression thereby stunting ur own growth.

Soul
At first in carrier and now in my finale career.

Spiritual astrology
Lunar in Scorpio
As u release this negative energy, you realise that just because people travel their own separate path doesn't mean they don't care about and support each other.
U start to understand that if others truly care about u, they will be there when u need them, and if they are not, then maybe they don't care as much as they say or as u think. This helps to sort out people who really care about you from those who don't and also broadens ur awareness of the many different ways people show their care. When u reach this awareness u will operate from a sense of ur full power and there will be no holding u back.

Soul
Amen.