Sadhguru asked nothing of me

Apr 11 eve 2

Went in deep into meditative zone. Could hardly open my eyes.
I was clapping and mostly just contented sitting, savouring my own silent presence.
Shoonya went in deep.

After Shoonya a tot came. This is like the past. My mom put me out there for neighbours cos I was the most 'suitable'.
The same now the local put me put out there cos I was the most suitable.
Just as I didn't want to when I was a child. But back then I was only two years old I couldn't say no and didn't knew what happen. I interpreted my mom didn't love me and I have to seek love elsewhere.
The same I didn't want to now at local Isha. Taking the lead on volunteering.
But now I got a choice. And I chose my freedom. My writing, my comfort. Sadhguru asked nothing of me except that I be joyful.
A and K is leaving. The old me would said another scenario whereby I got to hold on. This time nope. Local Isha can do on its own. Amen.


Rumi
The words we use for Creator are a reflect of ourselves.  If we think of God as fear and shame, we are scared and have something to be afraid of. But if we see love, compassion and kindness, it is because we possess this quality yourself.

Soul
I always tot God give me challenges; make me face more just because he gave me the talent or strength.

Guess that's me believing "power is responsibility".

Just as I tot God makes me faces tough challenges; the same I do to myself.

The truth is I m doing to myself.