God never limits, why should I limit myself

Apr 19 eve 2.
No more living unconsciously with negative thoughts about my romantic relationship.

Was updating my blog on 31 Mar and saw this.

Destiny, freedom and soulOsho
Our lives are both predestined and they are not. Both yes and no. And both answers are true for all questions about life.
In a way, everything is predetermined. Whatever is physical in you, material, whatever is mental, is predetermined. But something in u is constantly remains undetermined, unpredictable. That something is your consciousness.

Soul
My poverty in romantic relationship is in a way pre-destined as there is auto negative tots.
But now that I am conscious on these auto poverty tots, I am determined to change this.
No more thinking that I won't have my partner, that only others got. No more thinking that just because I am successful in professional relationship that I have to lose in romantic relationship.
I deserved all.
God never limit, and maybe need to change this belief that God is fair and square.
Perhaps God is abundance, unlimitless.

My body frame is changing, reducing further. L said I may be able to wear small size soon.
The tshirt I bought last week now seem bit too big.
This is something that I tot never can happen.
Well it did.
And the same thing can happen to my old destiny.
No more living unconsciously.
No longer need to live in poverty.
Live in abundantly.
God never limit myself, it is only me who limit myself.
Today the pool, I felt so free in the water.
Finally I love me..I experience me..
I am smart, funny, kind and sensual..Amen

Uranus 21 Mar to 12 May.
Ruling
Queen of Spades
Nine of Hearts

Queen of spades is known as the card of self mastery. This means creating more success by changing our inner tots, beliefs and attitudes instead of trying to alter our external circumstances.
Queens have their greatest power in the feminine, receptive mode. To truly receive, we must attain that state of mind in which we allow everything to come to us without hesitation. It is the spiritual aspirant who learns to master themselves instead of spending all their time trying to change external circumstances.
This is a highly spiritual influence that could indicate a time where you have some profound experiences of awakening and self-realisation.
There are bound to be some interesting experiences during this period that lift u to new levels of understanding and awareness.
On the practical side, u will find that that ur work and real estate concerns are going on very well, as u work hard and apply this new understanding to the mundane situations in ur life.

Soul
At first, major hiccups at work with a few resignations from staff but I persevere, I knew that the changes are good. And now it is elevated to another level. So, this is true too.
And with Y marriage, I suddenly realised I have unconscious poverty mode of my romantic relationship.
I have turned my inner tots around in having so many endings in relationship.
No more...for the first time I know there is hope for me.
And that hope is with me...being conscious.
I can now be fearless in personal and the same thing for romantic too.
I am now saying that all my exes are not the right match for me. Better one is coming.
For sure.
I have gone all the way down, only way is up now.
Amen
3 weeks to go to 12 May and I already can see settlement to a better level at office.
Same goes for my romantic beliefs too.