All my personality breakthroughs in Isha

Feb 18 aft

Greed is God by Sadhguru
Only if something beyond the physical becomes a living reality, if u touch a dimension which is boundless within u, now suddenly everything becomes conscious. Now u drive ur desires whichever way u want. U can aim for the biggest things. Whether it happens or does not happen is not important because u are not seeking fulfilment; ur happiness does not depend on it. You are just playing a game. U play the game the way u find it exciting. If that is the case, there is no cost attached to it.
Right now ur very happiness depends on the outcome of this desire, so it becomes compulsive.
If ur peacefulness and joyfulness is assured within u, then whether it happens or not, this is the way you are. Then desire is no longer compulsive.


Soul
That's what I want. I want to manifest my husband and yet I am also not affected if it doesn't materialise.
Somehow recently there is an inner contentment even when I was rejected by Y.
True I did cry in the bathroom but it is not prolonged.

Greed is God
Let us say u identify yourself strongly as an Indian. Then somehow, because u believe you are an Indian, just the shape of the map breeds a huge amount of emotion. The mind always works around the identities that u fix for yourself and this does not end with the country. It comes with ur religion, language, race, gender, and a million other things. As u get more deeply identified, u keep drawing boundaries.
The moment u drew this boundaries, slowly you have become a long face. The joy disappeared. Nothing is going wrong. It is the identity which is creating such a restriction and suffocates a human being.

Soul
I used to believed I m gourmet food eater so I cannot drop meat; I cannot eat low quality food. 
I used to say I can't wear traditional clothes, but I can now wear traditional indian  clothes to social and even to office.
I used to say I am a good worker so I cannot not meet expectation.
I used to say I joined Isha for tools so I cannot do devotional method such as yantra or rituals.
I used to believe coffee comforts me.
I used to believe I can't climb mountain now I m going to Kailash.
My identity all broken up.

My weakness of Ace of Diamonds is also my strength. I am open and I don't set boundary. I don't allow beliefs to limit me.

 Feb 18 eve
Feel bit off cos tonight encounter memory of two of my past Y and Z.
Less on Z and more on Y. With Z, I knew he was not the right one cos he is a family man whereas I m not.
Never mind. Just focus on Kailash. Tomorrow is medical check up.