North node in Taurus - latent anger due to suppression of their own needs

Feb 13 eve
Now reading Cosmic Love and Astrology for Soul. Reading our connection doesn't give me much hope on us. I just ignored it and said I don't know.

Now after the second romantic feelings, can now read astrology for soul from another perspective.

Astrology for Soul by Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
They need to be aware of its seeking self worth through others, which can lead them into the trap of unending search for soul mate. In truth, they can only achieve a sense of completeness within themselves - it will never comes as the by product of a relationship, even with a soul mate.

Soul
After the rejection from Y, I know I m fine. Just as I no longer need validation from career, slowly but surely I too no longer need validation from romantic relationship.

Astrology for soul
They want a synergistic relationship that is mutually empowering and completely dependable. To successfully establish such relationship, they must be discriminating and find someone with similar energy and values. The shared goals must be innately valuable to each of them as individuals.

Soul
Yes. That's why I now know mental and spiritual compatibility is a must. The physical is no longer the criteria.
I have attracted Y into my life. We are mentally and spiritually compatible. So the next one will not only be mentally and spiritually compatible but also wants a synergistic and mutually empowering relationship with me.

Astrology for Soul
North node in Taurus
In this incarnation, therefore, when they merge too closely or quickly with another person, they experience betrayal as a warning that they should keep their own boundaries, values and spiritual ethics.

Soul
My life time challenge was Seven of Hearts.

Astrology for the Soul
They can experience real extremes in life ranging from period of sitting in boardroom in corporations, to being on a strict spiritual path.

Soul
So true.

Astrology for soul
North node in Taurus
Because they have extinguished their own value system, they came into this lifetime with no sense of self- worth apart from the feedback of others. This makes them incredibly vulnerable to adopting values of those around them.

Soul
Ruling card Ace of Diamonds.

Astrology for Soul
In this lifetime, they are learning to build a sense of self esteem directly, by living according to their own value system. They need to empower others only when it is what they want to do, it fits with their own values and they have no expectation of getting anything in return.

Soul
Queen of Diamonds in Destiny.

Taurus North node
These folks carry a lot of anger. However if they take a deeper look, they will see their anger is really based on fear; fear of not being respected, not being liked, not being treated as a human being. So when they feel angry, they can ask themselves; "What am I afraid of?"
When they stop looking to others to provide their own sense of self worth and start looking inside themselves, suddenly their anger becomes productive energy.

Soul
When I read this previously didn't know it was me. Now that I know my latent anger is due to suppressed frustration. I now learning to voice it out instead of feeling frustrated and resentful.

Astrology for Soul
These folks are learning to express what they need and to avoid thinking about other's need first.
They may think they fully understand another's motivations and take actions or respond to the person on that basis, only to find that their appraisal was incorrect.
It work best when they avoid tuning in to the desires and opinions of others and instead focus on their own needs: "This is what I need.... These are my reasons.