Slowly but surely gathering faith over what I want

Feb 11 eve

Today found out that the 'funny' person who replied thank you to all in email loop was Z's wife. No wonder she replied thank you to the Isha mail as she was besotted with N.
She replying was weird by itself as it totally go against email protocol especially coming from a lawyer.
I burst out laughing; Z got a strange woman for his wife. His wife does have issue. Serves him right, his karma. He tot he got a good bargain but on the contrary.
Mind reacted but I told the mind that I no longer want Z. Infact among Y, Pa and Z; Y comes first, Z comes last.

Ambition to vision
There are many stories in India culture where, once certain men who were sages and saints willed, even gods had to come down and do things for them. Shiva cannot help it if a man sits with complete will and vision that he wants Shiva to come down. Shiva has to come down; he has no choice about it.
These things demonstrate to you that if what u want is very clear to u, and if u are set on it, what seems to be impossible today becomes a normal part of ur life tomorrow   Without any fuss, it falls at ur feet. But at every moment, if u logically question this and think in terms of "Is it attainable or not attainable," the confusion that u create in ur mind makes the world itself into a big confusion.

Soul
I got married in front of Linga Bhairavi.
My husband and I go to Kailash together this year. No more doubts. No more confusion

Ambition to Vision
The whole Gita is just about this - simply give urself to what u want with undivided attention, not caring whether it is easy or difficult, or whether it is going to happen or not going to happen.
It is a spiritual process by itself. It is a way of transcending limitations within and outside ourselves and of knowing life here bad beyond.

Soul
I may have failed before. But I now want it to happen.