Trust life

Jan 23
Woke up at alarm at 5.40 am but too tired due to medication. Doze back and woke up 5.07 am instead.

Feeling bit sad but know that the ending is the right one as I need to have parameter. No regret. Just have to face invalidation.

Today practices very good despite no full hata. Just did one cycle of Yoga Namaskar and one cycle Surya kriya. Just did a quick breathing. Shakti was good despite second cycle caught in work. Towards the end of Shakti, a giggle escaped and I was singing out loud and it continue till Shambavi preparatory steps.
After Shambavi. Body and head shaking non stop as if Sadhguru's energy was there. This seldom happens cos normally after Shambavi body is quiet.

As I was driving tot of my Trust card. Instead of thinking its jumping into Y, maybe this could be to trust life. Let Y goes as life dictate and trust that the right one will come along. Don't hold on to him.

Got this from Facebook
My dreams of writing about things that are truly meaningful to me, finding a fulfilling and passionate relationship, being more present with my children, and discovering a higher power are all coming true now that I am focusing my energy in the right direction—and that direction was to look within.

Soul
That's me except children part.

On Y, holding on to him is fear of not having another opportunity for a good partner as we truly compatible. Just now when I was reading some good article on FB, I wanted to share with Y but I stop myself. Just share with my Isha group will do. Let Y goes. Trust life.

This week Osho's Issue card
Trust
Don't waste ur life for that which is going to be taken away. Trust life. If u trust life, only then u can drop knowledge, only then u can put ur mind aside. And with trust, something immense opens up.

Soul
Once and for all settle my Two of Diamonds

Life love and laughter
Tantra belongs to Shiva and the Baul is an offshoot of the same tree. Tantra says, "Everything happens in its own right time, u need not force it. Ur force will not help. It will be disturbance. It may destroy but it can never be creative. One has to be very effortless, spontaneous. One has to be in a let-go. 

Let ripeness appear in its own time
For the full flower of the fruit.
A green jackfruit can be softened by blows but not made sweet. 

The Bauls said we are not searching for liberation. A lover, a seeker of love never talk in terms of liberation. He says,"It is tremendously beautiful. All that is, already beautiful. There is no need to be liberated from it. All that is needed is how to be in it, totally absorbed." 

The world is not a bondage for the Baul and there is no need to struggle against it. Infact, Baul says, "We love the bondage of the world because these fetters are also created by u."

It is a great play of hide and seek between the energy of God is, and the energy that u are. It is a great play!
There is no need to end it.

Yoga will says to drop, by and by, all ur attachments and finally, one has to go beyond love.
The Baul says all attachments are beautiful! Go deeper into them so u don't remain with the periphery but u reach to the
Center. On the periphery is attachment, at the center is love.

Soul so true, this is what Sadhguru said too in the Emotion book.