Self Mastery is not inner control is boundlessness

Feb 19

Woke up 4.30 am but feeling tired and so slept back and woke up 5.15 am.
Did Bhoota Suddhi and sang guru pooja.
Did one cycle of Yoga Namaskar and Surya Kriya followed by a short breathing session.
The last 2 days, somehow hand doesn't want to do mudra, just open palm.
Shakti was deep...and towards the end I was laughing bit and singing for quite a while.
Sat in arashidharna...so intense...especially didn't follow through with Shambavi to balance.

Now feeling bit edgy. Today is my Mars day. Eight of Clubs.

Feeling edgy cos no news on the Gudi and rather no news from Y.
I knew his time in Samyama is all on Hearts. And today saw his Ace of Hearts in Neptune...and mind immediately said thats not for me; he found another...
I also recalled he has Hearts in Uranus for both Ruling and Destiny.

Father, my Saturn in Jack of Hearts (Ten of Clubs) and Five of Spades (King of Hearts) is not my dad. Is more on him. I can feel the tension...
Just got myself into pedicure..need some loving attention..it will calm me down.

Just checked my today card.
Transformation - allow the pain to be just there.

Father, maybe just my mind playing tricks. Today just feel bit edgy. Let it be.

Once I said this, suddenly got msg from S on the purchase of Gudi.
So, just play it easy with my mind..Just remember when it is edgy..it is NOT ME.

Ambition to Vision by Sadhguru
U will know the joy of action only if u are blissful by ur own nature. If u are doing action to squeeze happiness out of life around u, then once in a way when there is a flash of success u are elated, but when it does not happen u will be miserable.

Soul
Was updating my blog and read this.
Suddenly tot this relates to relationship. When we give to receive, we feel elated when we received. But if we do not, then we feel bad.
But if we give without any plan to receive..cos we are already are joyful, then the other non-reciprocation does not matter nor affect our giving....
So..instead of controlling my giving..I should be managing and cultivating my inner joy.
Once I got my inner joy on full blast, no one's action will affect me anymore.
Self Mastery is not Self Control..
Self Mastery is not boundary...it is to be boundless within ourselves...

Ambition to Vision by Sadhguru
U have to insure ur joy first and then get into activity. Then it does not matter whether activity goes up and down, u will not go up and down.

Soul
Amen