Osho - when the Self shower on its own, happiness becomes your own

Jan 23 aft

After one week of silence, accepting the invalidation by Y.

Today I finally messaged Y - just asking him how he is?
Just because I have fallen for him (not deep as we haven't gone in); why can't we be friends. Just like I am friend with A.
And I truly enjoy talking to him...and it is mutual.

Just did the mirror card after nearly one week.

Me
Body - The Creator
Heart - Harmony
Mind - Flowering

Him
Body - Innocence
Heart - The Burden
Mind - Understanding

Outer Manifestation
Melting and merging - Turning in
Alchemy of togetherness - Courage
The Blessing - The Master

Inner Dynamic
Melting and merging - Politics
Alchemy of Togetherness - Exhaustion
The Blessing - Rebirth

Was checking my blog and saw this update back in Oct 2013.
Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
Whatsoever we know up to now was in the nature of others. Sometimes when beauty was seen, it was in someone else. Sometimes, when love was received, it was from someone else.  Happiness was received, unhappiness was received - it was always from the other. Someone else, someone else, always the other, only that other was important.

Now for the first time, the other is removed and the self starts showering over the self. It is like our own springs had burst open, it is as though one had found one's own source, and the self had begun showering over the self.

When neither the gaining of certain things determines whether u are happy nor the losing of certain thing makes u happy; when happiness has nothing to do with gain or loss; when happiness has become one's own, with no requirement of outside stimulation - neither meeting nor not-meeting, they both become meaningless, then it is vairagya, meaning non-attachment.

Soul
Thats where I am now.
No getting Y...
But neither waiting to get..