Osho - non attachment means when happiness has nothing to do with gain or loss

Feb 7 aft

Just feeling like a chapter of my life has ended with Y going off.
I just want to be alone and rest.
The last one month was quite a challenge and I pull through.
I think I shine too.
Finally I know I am fine alone.

Tot of those guys without legs. Thats their life; just like mine without a partner.
When I looked at them, I see that they come here with set of life situation for their soul growth. Just as I came here without a partner, that is too for my soul's growth.

Clicked our card.
Me - Burden
Him - Clinging to the past
Composite - Stress
Insight - Playfulness

Burden
When we carry a load of shoulds and shouldn'ts imposed on us by others we become like this ragged, struggling figure trying to make his way uphill. "Go faster, try harder, reach the top!" shouts the foolish tyrant he carries on his shoulder, while the tyrant himself is crowned with an imperious rooster. If life these days feels like just a struggle from the cradle to the grave, it could be time to shrug your shoulders and see what it feels like to walk without these characters on your back. You have your own mountains to conquer, your own dreams to fulfill, but you will never have the energy to pursue them until you release yourself from all the expectations you've gathered from others but now think are your own. Chances are they exist only in your own mind, but that doesn't mean they can't weigh you down. It's time to lighten up,
and send them on their way.

Playfulness
"The moment you start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on your heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love – everything disappears. One starts living with a very light weight or almost no weight. So weightless one becomes, one can fly in the open sky.  Osho

Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be, and when we recognize this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play. When the Page of Fire enters your life, it is a sign that you are ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and you have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms

Soul
Definitely, I went to Y with abandonment.
Even after he rejected me, I was okay.
I never let his rejection affect our friendship.
At times I admit I over do as me still achievement prone. But I no longer want to learn the lesson again.
Funny, his rejection; his absence makes me more confident.
I am fearless now.

Adhyatma Upanishad - Osho
Now for the first time, the other is removed and the self starts showering over the self. It is like our own springs had burst open, it is as though one had found one's own source, and the self had begun showering over the self.

When neither the gaining of certain things determines whether u are happy nor the losing of certain thing makes u happy; when happiness has nothing to do with gain or loss; when happiness has become one's own, with no requirement of outside stimulation - neither meeting nor not-meeting, they both become meaningless, then it is vairagya, meaning non-attachment.

Soul
May be cos I knew that anytime I am sad or down; I can just recuperate with my Shrine.

This week Osho tarot card really true..
1. Issue - understanding
2 Internal influence - Celebration
3. External - Rebel
4. What to do - Beyond illusion
5. Resolution - Going with the Flow

Amen