Keep going

Jan 22 eve 1

During the drive back tot of Y. But I m not going to call. Let me stay with his invalidation and stay with my validation. I need not seek him out. If he wants to be my friend he knows where to find me.
I want to have parameters. No more free fall. Not ready and don't want to push myself.

Maybe it will happen on its own. I no longer want to accelerate my learnings.


Rebellesociety
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Everyone includes you, so treat yourself with respect. You’re not a terrible person. You’re not a bad seed. You’re not cursed or jinxed, overweight or undeserving, and you’re not stupid or ugly or slow or cruel. Rather, you are good enough and, fortunately, good enough is enough.
Accept your flaws, forgive your failures and keep moving forward.
You are doing the best that you can and that’s okay. You will try harder tomorrow and that’s good. You will cut yourself some slack when things don’t go as planned and that’s required. You will treat yourself and your heart the way you would treat a loved one’s child – with care, with respect, with pride.
You will do the things that you want to do and you’ll be the person you want to be and when things go awry, when life hits a rough patch, you will remember that kindness is what counts, you will recall that compassion is what matters, you will recognize that you deserve to have a good life…
You are doing the best that you can and that’s okay. You will try harder tomorrow and that’s good. You will cut yourself some slack when things don’t go as planned and that’s required. You will treat yourself and your heart the way you would treat a loved one’s child – with care, with respect, with pride.
I know that some days are cold, rainy cowards and I know that some nights are twisted, vile adventures. I know that sometimes, somewhere, life will gain the upper hand, push you down and wind you up. It has happened before and it will happen again, but don’t fret. Don’t worry. Don’t surrender. Keep your chin up and keep your hopes high.
Keep going, keep moving forward and through all of the storm clouds and strong doubts, through all of the heartaches and mistakes, through all of the love taken away and through all of the obstacles and oblivion that you overcome, keep in mind to just be kind, just be kind, just be kind…
It’s doesn’t sound like much, but it’s everything, both a starting point and a finish line.