Venus - Ace of Spades (Breakthrough)

Jan 28 mor

Life love and laughter
I can teach u meditation and out of meditation a different quality of love will happen. Then it is not fooling around. Then it is wisdom, not foolishness.

Soul
For the first time with rejection I did rise in love. I didn't let their response dictates my action. I just be. I m no longer afraid to be rejected. I m no longer afraid to be sad as I know tears will dissolve the sadness.

Father, could this be it. Finally overcome Seven of Hearts.
This year card in Destiny.
Venus - Ace of Spades
(This card holds the promise of spiritual resolutions to some of ur mundane problem. This a process of death and rebirth. U will experience and ending and a beginning

Life love and laughter.
Then u don't fall in love, u rise in love.
Then love is a quality to u. Just as light surrounds a flame, love surrounds u. U are loving. U are love. Then it has eternity.
Whosoever come close to u will drink out of if. Whosoever comes close to u will be enchanted by it, enriched by it. A tree, a rock, a person, an animal.
Even if u are sitting alone ...

Suddenly I realised thats why Z and Y is in my face after their rejection of me.
This is for me to face the rejection squarely. My greatest fear was rejection and the sadness.
The Samurai game taught me that it is okay to lose, it is okay to die...and we are not really dead..
When I can face rejection squarely by allowing them in my space; I am letting them be..not wanting me as a lover but only as a friend.
I finally realised Seven of Hearts - unconditional love.

Just checked my Osho tarot card today.
Awareness
"Mind can never be intelligent – only no-mind is intelligent. Only no-mind is original and radical. Only no-mind is revolutionary – revolution in action. This mind gives you a sort of stupor. Burdened by memories of the past, burdened by projections of the future, you go on living – at the minimum. You don't live at the maximum.

The veil of illusion, or maya, that has been keeping you from perceiving reality as it is, is starting to burn away. The fire is not the heated fire of passion, but the cool flame of awareness. As it burns the veil, the face of a very delicate and childlike buddha becomes visible. The awareness that is growing in you now is not the result of any conscious "doing," nor do you need to struggle to make something happen. Any sense you might have had that you've been groping in the dark is dissolving now, or will be dissolving soon. Let yourself settle, and remember that deep inside you are just a witness, eternally silent, aware and unchanged. A channel is now opening from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It will help you to become detached, and a new awareness will lift the veil from your eyes.

Soul
So true...finally can see why I have to face rejection in the face..
It is not to make me suffer..it is to make me aware
Finally...amen..

Mmm, this was the Breakthrough