Bhoota Suddhi - the sky is now my shrine

Jan 28 eve 1

I have professional integrity as I m fearless in my communication and action. I set and communicate my professional parameters to my boss and colleagues.

But in personal and romantic I m fearful and hence no personal and romantic integrity.  I don't set personal and romantic integrity.

Seven of Hearts is about betrayal in relationships. It is about the lack of integrity with my friends and partners. It was me who is lacking in integrity in my communication. I kept tots which I tot they are not keen to know or I can't share. I was too fearful to share.

Fearlessness leads to integrity.
Fearful leads to betrayal.

Even Y didn't act with integrity when I told him that I have fallen for him. He was fearful of losing me and gave me a confusing answer. Even when I specifically asked for him to be upfront, he couldn't. It is only the next day when I press for more only he revealed that he doesn't want me the way I want him.

With all these tots came when I was looking at the sky. I feel connected to the sky. Suddenly I tot the feeling is as if the sky is like a shrine. When I said that suddenly a wave of energy hits me and tears burst out and I was crying and wailing uncontrollably. Alas I now experienced the Osho tarot card that Existence loves me.
After a long while, tears stop and I start to hiss and blowing breathe and inhaling as if I m with my home shrine. Amen

Pluto in Virgo by Jan Spiller.
Selfless commitment to recognising and exposing ur awareness of the realm of feelings leads you past ur greatest fear and into self mastery.

Soul
Alas self mastery. It is in me. I caused myself to be fearful. Now that fear is gone with my courageousness;
fearlessness is unleashed. This was the true Self Mastery.

Going thru life fearlessly.