Osho - it is a blessing to fall in love and suffer

Jan 28 aft 1

Cancer in January by Jan Spiller.
January’s second New Moon occurs on the 30th, in the sign of Aquarius.  This is a great time to open yourself to new ways of thinking and working with your emotions.  You can use this New Moon to set goals involving self acceptance, cultivating the parts of yourself that make you unique and creating space for more authenticity within your close relationships.  As you move towards embracing all the aspects of yourself, you can experience a sense of liberation. 

Soul
No response from Y and somehow it doesn't matter anymore. Last week I made my peace with him. This week I made peace with myself. Amen.
Coincidentally he has Four of Diamonds in Uranus - unexpected event. He is fixed and I don't expect a change. And him not changing is the reason why I have the opportunity to experience fearlessness over rejection.

My lifetime challenge is on personal and romantic. Personal I have dealt with. And now romantic I finally gone through courageously. Yes, Z and Y issue is not on relationship issue but their mind/plan on relationship. So they failed in their challenges so that I have the opportunity to experience the challenge and to overcome it. Suddenly everything makes sense. Now I know Existence truly loves me. Amen.

Osho
Sexual love felt like an humiliation. In sexual love u start feeling you are losing ur dignity, hence the pain. And then the fulfilment is so momentary; sooner or later any intelligent person will become aware that the satisfaction is only momentary; sooner or later any intelligent person will become aware that the satisfaction is momentary and followed by long nights of pain.
The ecstasy is just like a breeze, it comes and goes and leaves u desertlike state, utterly frustrated, disappointed. U had hope much; many things were promised by the instinctual part of u, and nothing has been delivered.

Soul
Well I still want my partner. I know it won't be easy but that's my path of growth. Nothing will distract me.

Life love and laughter
My approach is not rejecting it but using it. U have to find ways to transform it. U have to make ur love more prayerful, u have to use your sex more lovingly. Slowly slowly sex has to be transformed into a sacred activity, it has to be raised. Rather than sex pulling u down into the mire of animality, u can pull sex upwards.
The same energy that pulls u down can pull u upwards and the same energy can give u wings. Just at it can give birth to a new child into the world, it can give a new birth to u too.

Sex has to become a great meditative art. Slowly and slowly the pain starts disappearing and the energy contained in the pain is released and becomes more and more a benediction. The agony is transformed into ecstasy.

Soul
I m using it to give a new birth to myself as I have no need to perpetuate a new child.

Life love and laughter
You say, "I have fallen in love and suffered much"

You are blessed. The really poor people are those who have never fallen in love and never suffered. They have not lived at all. To fall in love and to suffer in love is good. It is passing through fire, it purifies, it gives u insight, it makes u more alert. This is the challenge to be accepted. Those who don't accept this challenge remains spineless.


Soul
Courageous card always whenever I faced romantic relationship.

Love will not bring u ultimate contentment. It is possible only when u have failed many times, loved and suffered and each suffering has brought u more and more consciousness, more and more understanding. Those who have not loved and suffered never become seekers of God - they cannot; they have not earned that worth, they have not become worthy. It is the sole right of the lover to start searching for the ultimate beloved.
Love, and love more deeply. Suffer and suffer deeply. Love totally and suffer totally, because that's how the impure gold passes through fire and become gold.

Soul
Amen

When I step out of the cafe I looks up to the sky and bow.

When I reached office I just received confirmation on Kailash trip. What a coincidence. I m coming Home. Amen.