Awesome Guru Pooja

Jan 28 eve 2

Just did my evening practices it took me about one hour and fifteen minutes.
Guru pooja was awesome. I was so fluent and full of energy and devotion. The dance movement was fluid too.
After guru pooja eyes remain closed; hissing and inhaling of breathe happens. It just stay shut and head was shaking non stop. After that  I felt so contented.
After a long while I sat and then proceed to Shoonya.

Father, What a day!
Thanks for the breakthrough.
From now on will be on integrity for all my relationships.

Just now received Y's message saying he can't make it. And asking me to stop missing him, quoting Shiva Shambo.
I just replied Thank you Y. And that's my good bye to him.

He would never know how much he play a role in this breakthrough. I know I don't love him but I m mentally attracted to him. Because of him I finally become fearless in my communication. Again for second time I say my piece and he said his. Real communication from both parties and I finally can move on and with that I deleted his contact.

His role in my life is done and I can truly move on.
I deleted his contact cos I am not sure if my Two of Diamonds will take me back to compulsion. But I m finally ready to let go. No dilemma just acted on it.
Amen.