Still missing Y

Feb 16 eve
This morning I climb some stair case in the park. Good workout. Will continue.

When I got back I did my physical release with Y in my tots. When I reached my peak, I cried. This is the second time it happens. I cried because I truly want him.
Later I remember my path of Seven of Hearts. Just got to go with the flow. My Soul choose this path for a reason and I just have to walked it. At least I just see my Soul as very courageous to undertake this path; I no longer sees it as suffering instead I see it as strength.

Suddenly thinking of Linga Bhairavi gudi again. This year I need all the help to manifest what I want especially my husband.

Today I shared with M I still want my partner. I am not doing anything but I m praying for him to be manifested. I know he will come. M asked wouldn't I got pass it. I said that's what I want. That's my path. And I believe I just need to focus on what I truly values and my husband will show up. I know now he has to be mentally and spiritually compatible with me.


Maybe need Linga's help. Guide me.

Just did my silence with shrine. So lovely. Suddenly a tot came, gudi to put beside my water pot at my bedside. My current shrine set up need not change.