Fluctuating between Linga Yantra and Sadhguru's sannidhi

Jun 17
Woke up 3.45 am. Sang guru pooja and Did Bhuta Shuddi. Angarmadhana was okay, slightly better than yesterday. Surya kriya was good. Breathing was good too. Shakti went in deep with slow Kapala Bhakti. Shambavi was good too. Towards the end just sat longer in contentment.

Finished practices around 7.19 am. Twenty minutes more than norm. I knew its because I spent longer time at breathe watching. These days that's my favourite sadhana.

Been having tots of Z, reminiscing the sensual pleasure. I just look at my tot and said I got healthy needs and Universe will provide me with my right sensual partner.

Had tots of Vibhudi in sannidhi flying in room, don't think is okay. Then tot of the 2 and half chakra iron pic of Linga.

Today I saw my shrine as complete. I will postpone decision. I m fluctuating between Linga and Sadhguru's sannidhi.
Will decide after Kailash. Then will know whether to proceed renovation in Sept. My visa last till first week Dec, so I can still go to Ashram then.