Stay in ashram

Jun 21

Ashram
Woke up 5 am upon alarm. Body bit sluggish cos woke up half way for An. Truly glad that I got the room to myself. Actually since this room is big okay to have 2 persons. For future trip prefer on my own. The last trip with G, we were hardly in the room and our timing is such that we are not together and come back only to sleep. So it was fine.

Today practices was much better than yesterday. I was laughing in both Kapala Bhakti and Aum chanting in Shambavi. Breathing was good. Angarmadhana better than yesterday.

Went to Vijii, energy is nice but somehow many people and I just couldn't stay long. Went to Linga's place and stay awhile.

Tot I saw the handsome guy in last Samyama. I saw him in webstream for Maha too. Anyway I waived it off as I recalled he is married.


Jun 21 aft
Just heard from teacher that none of the core team agrees to the training. He said he plan to drop Sathsang if no one is suitable.
I told him that now that I have my own shrine, I too am prepared to let go of Sathsang. Three years ago the former teacher issued the same threat and I took it up. This time I m prepared to let it go.