Sadhguru - Life is just about living sensibly

May 21

Woke up feeling bit tired. Woke myself up.
As I was about to start my practices I had tot of Y. He no longer want to be my friend. Then I judge myself negatively. for still wanting the friendship.
Moments later I had a positive tot.
I m vulnerable. I am a fool who can't let go. I m also loving.
Then during Practices, Sadhguru's msg comes to mind, be sensible. It is senseless if u continue with something that cause u suffering.
With that I knew Y truly cared and wants to spare me unnecessary suffering. So the sensible way is to avoid me and to end the friendship.
So I too follow suit. Be sensible. Just like when I deleted Z and now no longer feel any urge to contact him.

Did Bhoota Suddhi and sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch. Angarmadhana was good today. Surya kriya was okay but slightly out of breathe on arched breathe fluttering. Breathing was lovely. Time just past. Shakti was good with slow kapala Bhakti. Shambavi was good too. In the end just sit still in contentment with head slightly tilted up. Amen.

Another insight I learned today. Letting Y go away from me so that I can go away from others. I got Two of Diamonds in Letting go.
So let me see this as my lesson of letting go that correlates to me to be sensible rather than to create subsequent suffering to myself.

Another one...Living sensibly..
I just realised one thing today...I have not been sensible..
To be sensible requires us to be conscious instead of reacting unconsciously.
To be conscious means to be aware...
Amen.
Thats my motto...Living sensibly and not senselessly and cause undue suffering to myself.

Pluto in fourth house
In a broader sense, any arena which provides you with protection and security may be vulnerable to crisis and disruption.  Such crises may spring from subconscious motivations or may affect your subconscious, resulting in a psychological crisis.
When crisis results in transformation, you may find your outlook toward family and tradition profoundly altered.  After a peak crisis, you may feel that your whole essence has been fundamentally changed and that your sense of personal security is no longer dependent upon external nurturing but is rooted in your own sense of Truth.  If you are unable to undergo internal transformation, there is a danger that destructive changes will occur within your family and home environment.

Soul
Now alas I understand..
All the suffering is because of me living unconsicously, not being sensible.
Alas..I understand now that I need only to be true to myself.
I found my love..the Shrine.

Just now saw the group chat; someone keep sending non Isha related matters. His intention is good but not right protocol especially since its not meant for social purpose. But he has a point on keeping it alive daily. So have informed the admin.
Father, no longer afraid of others. No longer think of what others think of me..no longer need to communicate from sympathy view point. I do have a valid point just need to communicate is a nice packaging, be firm and assertive, need not seek sympathy.