North Node in Taurus - rest and enjoy simple life pleasure within boundaries

May 20 aft

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Often they 'sell out' by allowing other people to give them things with strings attached. Pretty soon they are going along with someone else's game, living according to others' value.
They are learning to resist temptations to abuse of power. They are learning that they cannot go against their own values without severely undermining their self worth. And that's pretty serious because self esteem is what they are aiming for this lifetime.

Soul
True Ruling Ace of Diamonds. On work not so, infact I quit just to protect my staff. That's why I quit the second company.
 But on local Isha I go along; partly out of gratitude and mostly out of validation.
That's why resentment arise as I was unhappy.

North node in Taurus
Establishing comfort zone.
The reason why they become so dependent on another person is because they have moved out of their own internal sense of comfort. Then they have nothing to hold on except their connection with the other person - a vulnerable and unstable position at best.
If they consciously stay in touch with their own comfort level, their  relationship work much better because they have created something solid and stable within themselves. They have been through so many radical changes in past lives that in this incarnation they are scheduled to rest, accumulate possessions and enjoy the simple pleasures of life: good food, good sex and a comfortable, stable home environment.
An inner feeling of "comfort" is an accurate barometer of being on path. They will win if they remain true to the boundaries of their own comfort zone.


Soul
A tot came. Thank God for not letting me be married earlier. I would have succumb to their values.
Previously I tot I was made to suffer. Now perhaps that's not so. It was because I m to be protected that I was saved from bad relationships
With Z, while there are physical pleasure there is no financial comfort.
With Y, there be limited pleasure on food and home.
I want it all. I can have it all.
Mmm. Feeling settled.
My dream may be small but is mine.

North node in Taurus
Rather than to be victimised by "wanting" they are learning they can have whatever they are willing to earn.
To gain the sense of substance they seek, their best bet is to turn away from what they don't have and begin appreciating the bounty of what they already have.

Soul
True.
Guess me always looking at the price. I m not willing to pay the price. Just as I m not willing to have children with Z and I lost him. I was also not willing to go through financial instability with him.

Actually I have everything except my husband. But I got the Shrine to make up for it.

North node in Taurus.
What these folks really want is for their insecurity to be resolved - to know that all their needs will be met. This is a lifetime of appreciating the bounty the universe is offering, not grabbing what others have.
They are destined to accumulate that which increases their inner sense of substance. By taking the emphasis off of specific people as their "source" and by partnering directly with life itself, their insecurities over survival can finally be healed.
They will find that life sends the right people - who often shows up unexpectedly - to ease their journey as every new need arise.

Soul
That's true.