My Guru is Sadhguru

Jun 24 eve
More than a life
Sadhguru said, 'I am a devotee. I am devoted to u. Devotion does not mean that I have to bow down to u or touch ur feet or sing ur praises. In every way, I live for u; that's devotion. I took this very birth to make this happen for u and that's devotion.

Soul
Amen.

More than a life
Maa karpoori
When he put me through a period of silence (which eventually lasted 3 years), I felt his presence enter me like a cyclone. I felt like I wasn't in control any more. It was like being flooded, choked, wrung inside out. It felt like death. But after months passed , I felt so completely cleansed that I realised he had actually brought me to the other shore. My brahmarcharya has been a battlefield, full of conflict. But when I finally took sanyas after my three years of silence, I was at ease. Today I feel I am home finally. My house is lit. I can see it and I m content.

Soul
Again, a message of home. Amen. 

More than a life
U don't look for ur guru, says Sadhguru. U just deepen ur longing in u. When u know the pain of ignorance, a guru will happen.
If you sit with a guru, everything in u should feel threatened. U want to run away but there is something in u which keeps on pulling you towards him - u can assume then that he is ur guru.
If u feel very comfortable around him, he is not.
A guru intention is to awaken u, not to put u to sleep. He is somebody who disturbs all kinds of conclusions that u have drawn. He is there to assist u towards ur liberation.

Soul
My fear of Sadhguru happens just after BSP. I attended Ayur Rasayana and had to face Sadhguru's picture in the Spa center. I remembered I was so fearful of his gaze that I changed my sitting position at least more than four times. Alas I can't avoid his gaze. Everywhere I sat I felt his eyes upon me.
Later when I did my first Shambavi after BSP in 2008, I went into deep meditative state. Laughing loads, couldn't stop. When I same out I felt such great fear. I feared that I be vegetarian and have to stay in ashram. My greatest fear back then. I was so afraid that I don't even watch his video as he affected me greatly. I ignored him during Samyama. I dismissed him as a great peacock.
I finally overcome my fear and face him in 2012. He saw me and just laughed and I too laughed.
After I accepted Sadhguru, I finally can open up to Dhynalinga. Just as I resisted Sadhguru I too resisted Dhynalinga.
When I first open up to Dhynalinga I experience it as Shoonya and most time as Sadhguru. In my perception Dhynalinga is 100% Sadhguru; more powerful than Sadhguru's physical presence.

In late 2012; dropped my ambition in my career. Converted to 3 days work week.

In early 2013 I suddenly dropped meat and now become seafoodtarian. It was such an effortless process. It just happen. No effort at all, no dilemma. I just don't want my body to be subject to stress of meat digestion.

In late 2013 I dropped coffee. I now only drink decaf coffee.

In late 2013, Dhynalinga yantra came to me. I then build my own shrine. Added Linga's Gudi in early 2014. My shrine is my love, my peace, my saviour.

In early 2014 I sat front row in Sathsang with Sadhguru. He looked at me and did a hand pistol pose and shot me. I think the message was, "he got me".

In mid 2014; I know I want to get my own Sannidhi. Sannidhi is my home. I am home alas. Amen.

Meat and coffee my greatest pride and pleasure is no longer with me.

More than a life
I am not doing anything because it meant a lot to me. I do it because it is needed.

Soul
That's how I felt on Sathsang now.