Sadhguru's sannidhi

May 28.

Had a dream of Y. Quite a long dream. I dreamed he was married but wants us to be friends. I dreamed that I was not keen. He is my past. Even in dream, I said nope.

Woke up around 7 am at alarm. I must have been feeling tired as I didn't wake up at all.
Did bhoota shuddi followed by guru pooja.
Angarmadhan was good and now the sitting posture of a child, I am getting it.

Just sat in the child posture there and I cried like a child I cried I was nothing, I cried for Sadhguru. Then I knew I wanted Sadhguru's sandhini.

Breathing was lovely but I did a short one cos today going to see dad at hospital. Shakti was okay but I cut short. Shambavi was short too. Finised by 9.45 am.

Today cried loads, realised that I m truly nothing. I cried for Sadhguru a few times. I suddenly tot of having Sadhguru's sannidhi. I started with so much fear of Sadhguru and now finally able to take in the Sannidhi. I think the energy be fine as I am able to sleep comfortably in BSP hall. Besides Sadhguru created Sannidhi so we stay close to him. I looked at my shrine and knew that I am ready for the Sannidhi. I don't want to wait for some 'husband' to get it for me. I get it for myself.

Mystics musings by Sadhguru
There can be rigidity in ur energy. For someone whose energy is very fluid, the very first day of the simplest yoga kriya, and the energy will start moving and transforming, whereas for another person, even after years of practising for a long time, nothing seems to happen.
The rigidity of body, mind, emotion and energy isn't really separate, they are all connected. The rigidity of one dimension manifest itself in another.

Ur sadhana of asana and kriya isn't about getting somewhere. It's just a way, a method to unleash a flood so enormous that it wipes away ur petty creations and leaves you as the Creator intended u to be.

Soul
This morning for the first time I truly felt I am nothing. Nothing at all.

Today's card.
My Daily Card
The Nine of Clubs

The Nine of Clubs literally means 'completion of plans or ideas'. When this card appears it will signal a time when some ideas, ways of thinking or communicating, or some personal plans of yours are ready to end. If you choose to resist this ending, you will experience great disappointment, stubbornly holding on to things, ideas or plans that are no longer useful or helpful to you. If it seems that things are going against you when this card is present, it is probably because you are resisting letting go of something, that in reality, is no longer doing you any good.

On the positive side, you are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than you have imagined. The Nine of Clubs has been known to signal a time when powerful spiritual experiences may occur, such as universal consciousness, and also indicates the success of any endeavors that involve spreading higher truths to the world.


Soul
Amen