It is okay for someone to leave me and vice versa (Two of Diamonds)

May 25

Did my evening session with the Shrine. Normally don't do on Sunday but I just want to. It was a short session. Not as deep as during weekday.

Debating on whether to call Y on the accommodation matter. Alas the final tot, he wants to avoid you, he has already forgotten you, why prolong.
Yes, be firm. Learn from him. He was already eclipsed out of my life. Just note its my Two of Diamonds.

On the Nalanda room, been thinking of staying there one day. Alas got a chance. Just need to remind myself I can afford it and I truly can.

Mmm, the horoscope really true on travel plans. First hiccup and change on the domestic flight causing additional payment and now hiccup on accommodation. 

My Daily Card
The Six of Hearts

The Six of Hearts is a powerful influence of balance and peace in personal relationships. How it affects you will largely depend upon your current status in your love life and how responsible you have been in that area. This card will demand that all outstanding love debts be settled and will encourage you to take responsibility for your actions and words in your closest relationships. You may find that you have to make compromises and adjustments to accomplish this as well.

On a more universal level, the Six of Hearts may also reveal to you a special purpose in your life, one of helping others by sharing love with them. You may become aware of a special mission that you are to perform when this card appears. It is the card of peace and of intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.

Soul
True.
Finally realised to love someone is to let them go.
It is okay for people to come and go in my life..just as it is okay for me to come and go in others life.

This afternoon, as I was talking to a core team, he asked if I am coming to the isha program. I said yes. He said please come, my presence is important. Just my presence.
For the first time, I feel wanted instead of needed.
I think they knew I shy away from the programs so as not to caught in the web of volunteering again. I don't trust myself previously. Also I don't want to give them a fall impression that I am back. At least that got straigthened. He also shared that planning for the local program has been planned. They just want my presence. Me being there is more than enough for them. Amen.

Eclipse in April affecting 6 months
With the South Node conjunct this New Moon/Solar Eclipse, it is also a time to release all the things that you need to release……. not only this life time, but past life times…..meditate on this.  Listen and feel what is coming up for you……. from deep in your Soul. What cycles keep repeating and repeating themselves?  They may not be comfortable to look at, or to have to deal with…….but the Universe believes that you are ready to face it and to make some changes.  This is a time to release and to manifest and intend!   Mediate during this time….the energy is very powerful and will be for several days.  Ask to be given the strength to release the things that you no longer need…… so that you can manifest, on this New Moon/Solar Eclipse, the “new” that you are co-creating.

Soul
The cycle that keeps repeating itself is me holding on to a relationship when others have long letting go.
I think now that the shake in the office, me letting go of people in working relationship is mirror for me to see how others have let go of me and how I too can let go of others in romantic and personal relationship.

The old me would have reacted and contacted Y...alas can see the karmic cycle.
So this week Resolution is correct.

Past lives
The real point is to see and understand the karmic patterns of our lives, and their roots in an endless repetitive cycle that traps us in unconscious behavior. The two rainbow lizards on either side represent knowing and not-knowing. They are the guardians of the unconscious, making sure that we are prepared for a vision that might otherwise be shattering. A glimpse into the eternity of our existence is a gift, and understanding the function of karma in our lives is not something that can be grasped at will. This is a wake-up call; the events in your life are trying to show you a pattern as ancient as the journey of your own soul.

Soul
Amen