My shrine's energy is great

Jun 30

Woke up at alarm at 3.45 am, body feel bit groggy cos was dreaming. This is the first day going back to my routine after the trip to ashram.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing of guru pooja. Angarmadhana was good despite a week break. Shakti good too, head was shaking non stop towards the end. These days I m taking more time to rest my legs since Swami said long term effect knew negatively.
My right knee is hurting. My right elbow joint are swelling, bit painful. Couldn't do the pumping as elbow couldn't support.

Today have dream of physical needs and tots of Z comes to mind. I didn't stop the flow. I just reaffirm that my needs are normal and Universe will give me  the husband that fulfil my needs. Yesterday was the same too.

One more month to Kailash, while my wish to Linga is for my husband but now I just let it be. Recently the husband tot hasn't been constant. But with the physical needs coming up it reminds me.

On the other hand Kailash is one in a life time trip; I want it just for me. Just to be there and absorb the energy. My wish is now that my feeling of Home will be reinforced. Can't wait for my sannidhi.
True ending of year with Ace of Hearts. My shrine.
Yesterday night I was engrossed in Facebook and didn't light up the shrine immediately. Then it occur to me and I did it. Didn't plan to sit with shrine. Just light and continue with my reading but I was stucked, just sat there for 20 plus minutes.

Life's Mysteries - Osho
Remember one very fundamental thing about life; any experience that has not lived will hang around u, will persist. "Finish me!" Live me! Complete me!
There is an intrinsic quality in every experience that it tends and wants to be finished, completed. Once completed, it evaporates; incomplete, it persists, it tortures u, it haunts u. It attract ur attention. It says, "What are u going to do about me? I am still incomplete, fulfil me.

Soul
Well the part on having a permanent partner is calling me. Just when I tot I found my home; the physical need is making a comeback.


Today's card
Mercury
My Daily Card
The Two of Spades

The Two of Spades means a union or partnership in work or friendship. Since this is a spade, the partnerships that it may fortell will be ones where you and the other person actually spend time doing things together, whether it be work or things such as hiking, exercising, camping, biking or other sports.

When the Two of Spades occurs in your reading you will be feeling the need for others in your life and as such will likely attract someone with whom you can have a pleasant friendship or working relationship. The key to success with this card is cooperation. Close relationships always require a bit of give and take for success.

Soul
Yes..just feeling bit lonely as others all seems to found their partner.
Wondering where is mine...
Just my past calling...