North Node in Taurus - emptiness due to overvalue others and undervalue themselves

May 29 aft
North node in Taurus
Withholding
It is these folks' advantage to release their tendency to withhold from their partner. Often the key is discrimination. Does the other person's expressed need violate Taurus North node's sense of self-worth? If not, it behooves him to give the other person what she needs. Just as it is inappropriate for him to live by someone else's values, it is inappropriate for him to expect others to live by his values. Other people are simply being themselves.

Soul
Yes, I do have that tendency.
Learning to dismantle. Such irony, because I don't ask for what I want I tend to be reserved when others asks for what they want.
Maybe when I learned to ask for what I want I m less controlled when others ask for what they want.
C being a Nine of Diamonds definitely does ask for what he wants. E being a Nine of Diamonds does that too.
This week I can see myself less controlled, no longer feel bit edgy for him daring to ask for what he wants.
Again another dimension to Seven of Hearts.

North node in Taurus
Awareness of needs.
There is a difference between expressed needs and unexpressed beds. When Taurus North node generously cooperate with those expressed needs, their partners are happy and respond with an outpouring of love and appreciation.

An unexpressed needs are something projected onto the other person. This doesn't satisfy what the other person actually wants and leads to dissatisfaction for both parties.
Sometimes they afraid to reveal what they need for fear of appearing selfish. Actually, when they don't reveal what they want, they deprive of their opportunity to make them happy. Also, if they don't communicate their boundaries and let others know what they need, people begin to lose respect for them.

Soul
True. I tend to keep what I need. It then turns to resentment. And finally it explode into tantrum and partner defense's mechanism come up and we both lose.
What I learn is to have parameter. To communicate. To be authentic. To be fearless in love.
Its true I was fearless with Y and we are not together but at least not prolong.

Soul
I realised I tend not to ask partner to express their needs. Z always asked me what I want. But I never asked him what I want.

North node in Taurus
To Taurus North node, others can seem like gods who hold the key to meeting their needs. But they overvalue others and undervalue themselves.

Soul
When Z didn't choose me I tot my value is low. Later G said its because my value is higher than Z. He found someone that looks up to him whereas I don't. G also said my perception of Z is flawed. She don't see him as the person I described. Whereas for Y is was fine.

North node in Taurus
These imbalance leads to heartbreak. Once they recognised this, instead of trying to figure out if the other person can fill their needs, they begin to let their partner know how they feel and what they require to be happy.
No justification, no compromise - just simple revelation of what they need in the relationship.
The irony is that when Taurus North node people are true to themselves in this way, the changes others make in their behaviour are generally beneficial for Taurus North node as well.

Soul
Mmm imbalance, a key feature of Seven of Hearts.
Amen.
That's where I have not been loving to myself
In order to love myself I must set parameters. I also set too much parameters on myself but not on others, which doubles the impact. No wonder so much resentment and blocked energy.

North node in Taurus
These folks sometimes feel they have given and given and just don't have anymore to give. This stem from being constantly aware of their partner's needs - it takes lots of energy to keep part of one concentration always attuned to the other person! The feeling of emptiness is actually to their advantage: it reminds them of the necessity to turn inward and meet their own needs first. Otherwise the emptiness persists, no matter how much their partner gives.

Soul
Mmm. No wonder the hidden neediness. I must take care of my own need.