Sannidhi is Homecoming to me

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More than a Life - Sadhguru
Enlightenment is not an achievement. It is more like a homecoming. An absolute coming home - that is enlightenment.

Soul
Mmm. What a coincidence that my experience of Sannidhi is Home. I felt I come Home. Home is when I m in Sadhguru presence. 

This trip, three times I was asked to keep to myself. To stop laughing when I m so high with Sadhguru's energy. And all the 3 times I tot I was quite contained as I didn't want to attract attention. Alas, ashram is changing into tourism place. Hardly any Samadhi path meditator. Many come for social reason.

During Shakti correction I was said to be a distraction. I laughed cos too high with Kapala Bhakti and Sannidhi was there just in front of me. The previous day I sat in the middle of the hall, 10 row and was not aware of Sannidhi.
 During darshan, a volunteer said I was frightening some people.
But there are some meditators who came at to me and said my laughter is great. It makes them feel happy and they too want to laugh.
So the last preceding day in ashram is not great. Guess that the kid in me that interpret that I m unwanted. Must remember Y said that it is a gift that I m so receptive and I must be truly happy.

Sadhguru said our tots are superficial. Mmm.

More than a life - Sadhguru.
The hill pulsated with a fierce and explosive energy that the group recognised unmistakably as their guru. "We went instantly into meditative states', says Srinivas. While some staggered, others wept and still others unable to open their eyes.

Soul
I experienced this every night with my shrine. I just sat and I m in the meditative zone. My eyes cannot open.  Glad I bought the book. I read it a few years ago before I accepted Sadhguru in Aug 2012. I recalled I had resistant to the book. Now that I m a devotee; I read it better. Also  this makes me feel closer to him and gives me insight on myself.

In his darshan Sadhguru said for those of us who have experienced a dimension beyond our physical self have a responsibility to share this and bring in others.

More than a life - Sadhguru
Why bramacharya path? When u are trying to establish a spiritual path that will live on for generations after u, it is not possible without a solid tradition of brahmarcharya. 
Every human being is in search of joy, knowingly or unknowingly. Because u could not find joy, u settled for pleasure. Pleasure is just a shadow of joy - beautiful but limited.
Now if u are a pleasure seeker, and something that gives u pleasure is taken away from u, u are broken. That means existence is one of huge bondage. U can gold-plate ur pleasant limitations but u cannot break them.
Brahmacharya - the path of divine - means that u are joyful by ur own nature. It means that ur joy is on self-start, no longer on push start.
And anyway, if the source of happiness is within u, searching for it outside is stupid.

Brahmarcharya are people who have decided that they don't want to extract joy from anything or anyone, they want to source their own inner joy. In that sense, the whole world needs to turn to brahmarcharya internally. It doesn't have to be about a practice, a vow, an external lifestyle for everyone.  U can be married and still be a brahmachari. It means u are ecstatic by ur own nature - and that's how it should be.

Soul
That's the purpose of Self mastery. I started due to not wanting to be affected or hurt by others. I want to be self sustained or self support. Little did I know that there is a well of joy within me waiting to erupt. Sadhguru erupted my inner joy during my first Shambavi initiation and the joy continues to flow ever since day one.

Father, tot of Sathsang. There is no way I can let it drop. I can't let Sadhguru's tool be dropped. This time i m not doing this because I want Sathsang or the energy space. I already have just energy space at home with my shrine. I will continue because I owed my life to Sadhguru; I won't be helping him to expand but I can't let it reduce. That's my commitment. That's my prayer of thanks to him.

More than a life
If a spiritual practice is part of ur life, it doesn't work. If it has become u, it is still not enough. It has to become more than u, more than life. That's what brahmarcharya is about.

Soul
Amen.

More than a life
For those who have experienced Sadhguru as a master, there seems little difference between Sadhguru and Dhynalinga. One is made of flesh and blood and the other of stone but the quality of the presence - the subtle body, in yogic terms - feels essentially the same. 

Soul
True.
Dhynalinga is 100% Sadhguru; much more potent that Sadhguru's physical presence