Cosmic Lesson (10)

Feb 17

I swing between wanting and don't want love. Seven of Heart is about balance. I want and yet I don't want.

I now know the Source is my Home. I can go back to my Home. I am safe. I am home. Now I know what the transformation card meant.

Z is not the last guy. I need not hold on. I want him but I don't need him. For the first time, if we are off, I won't be taking this personally. I won't believe that I was unlovable, not good enough or etc. I would just tot that is ok cos its not meant to be. And I won't be holding on cos I know he is not the last one.

At the moment he think he is doing me a favour, he thinks that I really want him and maybe need him. Since I am offering, he won't block.
Well, I don't need such favour. So, I will just let this slide. Part of me says he will be back as I am his Mercury and Venus card and not easy for him to find replacement like me.

My song; If I can't have u, I don't want u baby. Amen.

Seven of Heart
A balance of want vs need.

Expect a miracle
Your body is a vessel through which Grace flows. The clearer u r, the more radiant and magnetic u become.

Soul
I am getting there. No wonder people said I have blossoms.

Expect a miracle
To break out of the self-fulfilling cycle of cynicism and negative expectation, we must open our minds by lifting the judgements that bar the miracle from manifesting.

Soul
Old belief that is no longer valid
1. Unlovable
2. Not good enough
3. Frigid
4. Suffering
5. Bad luck
6. No more chance

The fact that I can initiate new relationships mean I am lovable. My wrong strategy
1. Go for man who wants me
2. Afraid to get to know the guy in depth
3. Hold on even if I don't want to
4. Let them touch me even if I don't want to
5. Go for man that matches only my mental
6. Fear of failure, convert want into need - which accelerate the drop.