Facing my karma in relationship (22)

Feb 8
Father, did my practices for about 3 hours. I was humming some songs during hatha yoga. As for shakti and shambavi, there were tots of Z. Ended by a stillness.

Father, let's face it, Z is not into me. He is a player who go after what he wants, so I cannot delude myself. I don't want to kid myself and I don't even think about valentine day. 10 days has passed and another 42 days to go. Saturn's lesson is unattachment. Let me remember that I am finally able to love my brother again and that's the miraculous part that I have accelerated from my confession and overcoming my self-judgement. So, the next 42 days should be easy.
Let me keep myself busy with my writing work. And its budget period by mid Mar, so this period will be over in a flash.

(Mar 18 - Nearly over...what a ride! Thanks to Father and all the masters who have guided me. Thanks for my Self for having the courage to go through this. It turns out he is not a player after all!)

Soul
Aiyah, having my husband with me is Top 5. So, not sure if I am reducing my Top 5 by running away from Z. I will stay put.
Ok, step by step, learn about unattachment first, learn not to take rejection personally, learn that I am still lovable. Past issue resolved and transformed. Yeap, these are the markers, so I am on the right track.
Anyway, I still have to warn him about his Jack of Spade period. This could just be an initiation and I need not think of the finale. Perhaps that was the finale and there is a next one come as I am now lovable. This is just the beginning.

(Mar 18 - it is for next year)

The Passion Test
The key is to get out of ur own way. Below are the things that can prevent u from living a passionate life;
1. False ideas
2. False concepts
3. False beliefs.
Eg of False beliefs, thinking "I am worthless", "I can"t do it", "I am not good enough", "I am not lovable".

Soul
Yeap, I am lovable. I have passed the initiation test.

The Passion Test
Jay Abraham
The real fast-track path to getting everything, anything, and more than everything u want is putting others ahead of what u want and focusing on their needs, their wants, their desires, and fulfilling them.

Soul
Tot of me and Z. Yea, I believe in a rship we must know what we want and go towards fulfilling them together.

The Passion Test
Jay Abraham
In order to be loved, u have to first love.
The mere opposite of what u want is what u have to give first and then u will get back the desired outcome in droves.

Soul
That one is something I am not sure. I guess its becos I tot of I don't have instead of what I have.

(Mar 18 - Mmm, i guess I was loving when I decided to pay for the trip when he said he is out of cash. But I made it cos I really appreciate his vulnerability in telling me he is down. He is so appreciative that I not only paid but didn't make him feel bad about it.)

The Passion Test
Jay Abraham
Wrong question ; "Am I worthy of the goal?"
Right question; "Is the goal worth of me?".