Cosmic Lesson (6)

Feb 10 Eve

Father, the pool was great. I just wade in and I was laughing non stop. Then I swam, I was swimming so effortlessly. I was swimming so slowly. Just floating, the feet barely moved, just my arm wading the water. After every lap, I was laughing, singing and dancing.

Father, I am safe. When I was swimming, I suddenly had a tot of how to go into this deal safely. I wanted the deal to proceed but I need to a safe exit cos I know I need some protection. So, I know, for the initiation, I would come here. It has a resort feel and the pool is very energetic. Just a one-off session will do and then we will do a cut-off.

When things have settled down, we will continue our friendship but without the intimacy. Who knows, I will be as receptive and adventurous in sex as I am in meditation. Both also I have never tries before, but I fell into it. Just like V pesters me for it, Z is also pestering me into it. And I myself also wanted to break free of the long hidden door. Perhaps the timing is right, when the student is ready, teacher comes. It was such a coincidence that I finally cleared the way with brother.

Father, I had some imagination of him not willing to let me go. I just drop the tot, need to move on. He said I am not in his mind and he doesn't miss me at all.

Tot of E. Who knows, as I didn't change my Vision Book. I wonder whether Z knows that what we shared yesterday is something amazing, its not an everyday event. If he doesn't realise that, its his loss.

And coincidentally after yday amazing incident which I broke through all my doors together with Z, tomorrow I will be attending a self realisation course.