Facing my karma in relationship (24)

Feb 9

Father, he replied with a smile after 1 hour. Anyway, I was sleeping by then.
I tot why spend so much time on him. He is in my mind loads and part of me resent it cos I know I am not in his. And yet I can't get rid of him. The old me would do a self jeopardy just to end it.
Hey, having a loving husband is in my Top 5 list, so its fine I am spending time on him. Intention and Attention but without Tension, that's my motto.

I now realised whenever I seek him to give him love, I am fine if I can't get his response. But if I seek him to extract love then I be bad if I can't get him.

Sadhguru's message of give joyously if u want to give. Don't discriminate or judge as the sun shines on all. And this reaffirm the earlier message from the Passion Test, Jay Abraham that says if u want love give love.

So, learn 2 things that I need to do.
1. Seek him only when I want to give love
2. When I give love, give joyously, forget about his reciprocation, if any.

To do that I need trust in the Universe for the messages I have received.

The Passion Test
Stephen M R Covey
Trust is a great form of motivation of releasing talent, energy, passion;
of releasing ur own energy and passion by being trusted and also by extending trust to other people.

Today card
King of Hearts
Being the highest card in the suit of love, rules through love, compassion and wisdom. He has all the power and knowledge of love and knows how to use it, thus when this card appears, it gives u the opportunity to have more control over ur feelings and romantic impulses. This will bring more success in all ur personal relationships.
For the ladies, it represents the perfect lover or companion.

Soul
Sounds good. Will see. First tot was Z seeing me today. 2nd tot is that it may not happen but I definitely talk to him tonite.

The Samurai Game
Each player to adopt an attitude of service of the sort that was at the core of being a Samurai - service to teammates (clan), service to leader (daimyo), service to a personal idea or code of ethics.

Also each player was to serve all opponents by respectfully bringing the best of self to every contest - regardless of outcome. In so doing, each contestant would have the potential to generate similar attitudes in opponents.

Soul
Being the best of self even with opponents. And here I am not even being my best self with Z. If I be my best self, there is a potential that Z will also be his best self.

Talking to Sh gives me back my original purpose. My target audience are thinkers who can apply knowledge on themselves.

My forte is filtering and I gave the gist of learnings from each book. That was my purpose.
I need to do 2 facebook:
1. One for my comments on books.
2. One for my tots of the day??