Cosmic Lesson (8)

Feb 16 Aft
No one can add value or take value from me. I am intact

Father, previously I tot I was fated as not lovable and hence no one wants me. Since it was fated, I resentfully accept it and tot there is nothing to unveil per se. There is no problem per se.

Now that I know it was the lack of love for myself that causes me to sabotage my relationships, it does offer hope. But of course, I am now judging myself for lack of valuation. Aiyah, this is a happy problem. It is not easy knowing I am the cause.

Yeap, can be overcome. Just like when I realise I hankered for the valuation in job, I transcend it. The same can be done for relationship too.

First thing I want to do is I want to face the real Z. I don't want to project my feelings on to him. If he is truly keen, he will initiate. If he does not, I will let this lie down.

What is born will die. And I played death in Samurai Game. I sacrificed myself cos I tot I have flowered.

A tot came. I am afraid of facing me being a small devalued person in a relationship. I felt bit like dying, like I lost myself whenever the rship turn astray.
So I avoid it cos it makes me feel small. I tot the issue is the rship but now I realised the issue is me. The rship was just the tool to show me that I was mistaken in thinking that someone else can add value or devalue me. I was also mistaken that I can only love myself based on valuation mode.
When I was dying in Samurai Game, I realised that my valuation was intact, I was not devalued.

By not having a relationship I tot my valuation is intact. Father, this is the same concept with me not doing lower value job as I afraid it will lower down my valuation.

Father, why my love is tied to valuation.

Expect a miracle
Mantra;
I am breathing and listening. In this stillness I am whole.
I rest in sacred stillness, knowing my partner is on the way.
I accept where I am at this moment and allow myself the possibility of change.

Relationships are the perfect opportunity for growth and high expression and because growth can be frightening, and the best way to keep it away is to stay busy with the dramas of everyday life.

Soul
I know I am connected and I can see my connection with others.

Expect a miracle

Magnetism is that which begins as a connectedness within onself and then issues forth as a connection with others. Magnetism is bringing together our body, mind and spirit in perfect harmony.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Of course what we cannot feel toward overselves cannot be felt by a potential partner. If we don't like who we are, why would someone else? If we don't like who we are, why would someone else?


Soul
Yeap, I cannot love myself, so I create neediness.

Expect a miracle
So relax, stop being hard on urself, accept who u r right now, and begin to open ur heart to the possibility that u deserve a miracle.

When we are comfortable with all aspects of ourselves, self-love and magnetism come naturally.

Soul
Why not? I have so many miracles, what's more another one. It was a miracle that Z and I can connect so well. The foundation has been set.

Expect a miracle
Trinity self
1. Mind
2. Body
3. Spiritual

When all parts of the Trinity Self are operating at the highest level possible, we become magnets for love. Only then do we naturally link up with the partner who can join us for the lessons and experiences we most need in order to further grow and evolve.

Soul
I am already radiant. I know I am blossoming as this is my spring time. For the first time my body has finally caught up.

1. Mind - we r compatible. he is a strategist
2. Body - we r aligned - he more experienced than me
3. Spiritual - we do sync - I am more experience than him.