Facing my karma in relationship (28) - running

Feb 11
Woke up and before meditation

Father, I think I am on the right track. It is ok to end it. I guess the amazing interaction we had was the finale.
At the end, he is a cold man, things doesn't reach his heart. Me, am a warm woman.
Now I realised the Friendliness card meant, meditate, blissful, love + enjoy while u r and end when u r not. No drama required.

To continue with him would have drama. To continue with him would defeat my new mantra of effortless love and effortless life.

When I am keen, I become warm and I love to touch. Being physical is an expression of my love. It is unrealistic for me to expect myself to go through. Just end it like he suggested. We r like 2 ships that passed through the night.

He said he only now realised that. So that's means physical just an act, his emotion is not involved as confirmed by his story.

I am loved, loving and lovable and I need not accept a person that is not the same, that doesn't appreciate me. Amen.

If I can't have u totally, why start. Especially when u told me that u r so strong and won't change ur mind. Here I was thinking a one session will do that when a one full year session doesn't even stirred u. I need not settle for less.

No shame in being wrong. He tot I was attracted to his clothing, he was wrong. His clothing was lousily coordinated despite being so expensive.

I tot he was attracted to me as he always observed me, turns out he only likes to see me being connected to the Source. Guess he is envious of that and perhaps tot that having me can gain access to the Source.

If I can't have everything of u, I don't want u. If u don't want everything of me, then u can't have me too. I am a package deal person. I deserve everything, not just morsels like what I used to think. No more. I am lovable and my partner will come. I need not settle for morsel, I need no go thru fire to prepare myself for my partner. My main thing is just to do my body - dancing and scuba diving and getting lassik

After meditation
I was laughing and singing in my meditation and this song came;
If I can't have u, I don't want u baby....

So, I knew its fine. I deserved all,