Effortless is when there is no resistance

Feb 1

Father, an insight just occur to me.
When my resistance was dissolve, things begin to flow at work and everything become effortless.
Then this CNY lunch invite to Isha. I was excited about it as mom finally accepted my friends from different race. Alas no one can join and many also didn't reply. For those that didn't reply I knew was because they cannot come but they don't want to hurt . I was surprised that I took it this well. I just accept it and at first just tot of to invite a close friend.

Then coincidentally I had dinner with a group of old friends. I told them about my close friend coming over for lunch and he asked me is that an invite or info. I had to invite them and then the other couples too. 3 couples and 4 kids. They immediately accepted my invite and was happy that we are regrouping.

So, the party was on effortlessly. Granted the guests was different now but the party is on.
So, I am wondering whether this may be the modus operandi for my issue in relationship. I like Z and even confess my attraction to him. And he didn't respond as he is on a hunt as he recently open up his market and I may not fit him. So, just let it be. My target was to have a companion that spend quality time with me.

Who knows, it may not be Z as I too am just opening my market. Yea, for my love life to be effortless, I need to open up, respond and let go.
Z's declaration
1. He declared he is playing the field. He has some other players
2. He don't want any commitment for 1 year in 2011. He wants to hunt and play the field.

So, he cares for me and don't want to hurt me. Logically I can relate. For me, I too am opening up and who knows what will come. I guess I looked too much in the card. It could be true that he and I matches but the timing is not now. I think he deserves to play the field for awhile. Me, alone also happy, with him also happy.